Progression of my Cyber Fashion project...

I have 10 days left until the hand in of my cyber fashion project, I'm struggling but trying not to sink. I hit a wall a few day ago, in terms of my project, but I think I moved on. It took some outside inspiration.
My Safe+Sound based project is based around the issue of living with asthma. To be honest I see my film as more of an abstract representation of what my mind conjures up when I think of dealing with asthma itself, or experiencing an asthma attack, but I would like to think it could be helpful, inspirational to others...
I move on to thinking of the positive outcome I could concentrate on from having asthma. I would be a diffferent person if I didnt have it. I don't believe in the idea that suffering is good, to make you appriceate life, but I do think that not having eveything handed to you, or being in some way or another an 'outsider' can make you a more compassionate person. It obviously affected my parents, me having asthma attacks from 2 years old, just the unthinkable devestation and tragidy of possibly losing a child would make you question life, your priorites...I think the idea of being as happy, and (however cliched it sounds) living life fully has been embedded in me from the start. For instance not conforming to the need/pressure to excel in academic subjects, or all social conventions, but to be cultured in art, whether it be painting photography, film, theatre, music...to know how to appriciate how privaliged lucky I am overall. I think all these aspects which have sprung from me having asthma are all obviously positive and make me who I am. Art, and in particular photography is the most natural thing to me, but also the most exciting and fulfilling thing in the world.

Todays I'm finding it hard, fallling in and out of love in my head. Confusion. Trying to concentrate on the project and my film. But my mood is affecting my work.

I've been editing my film some more today, trying to find the perfect music. I've been listening to Postal Service, Diane Cluck, Beethoven's Symphony No.7, and Mozart's The Marriage of Figaro, and I still can't pick the right one, maybe I need to leave it and go back to it tomorrow, or maybe I need an outside opinion. Someone has suggested Micheal Nyman...may be what I'm looking for.

So, so far I've finished filming all footage for my short film, which is looking like it will be around 4mins, the editing is pretty snappy, I've combined moving film and stills. I feel like it's lacking in something, I'm not sure what...I've watched it too many times tonight, I've become anaesthetized by it.
I added more to my sketchbook last night, more inspiration, and also some of my stills.

I'm itching to go out.

28/10/07- I went to the Barbican art gallery to see 'Seduced:Art and Sex from Antiquity to Now' with one of my closest friends. Needed to go to an exhibition, see something new. Marlene Dumas paintings were wonderful, dark and rich, and the Nan Goldin stills beautiful and moving.

Editing on my film is slowing down rite now, think i'll have to finish it tomorrow.